Ice_Kube

Junning.

I've nv felt so alone.
this is so painful
i'm crying so hard i can't see what i'm typing
i just wish you would hold my hand and tell me this is not real.
I miss you so much.
I dunno why things have to happen this way.
its nt supposed to be like this.
why baby why.
why did we turn out like this.
i dun wanna wake up tmrw.
and the day after.
i dun wanna go to work later.
i dun wanna face this world
without you anymore.
nobody can hear me cry now.
the fact is.
you're not here with me.

baby.
we believe this is the best for us.
i just feel our hopes and dreams thrown outta the window.
those words still echo in my head.
'i think we should end this tonite'
i've thought about this so many times.
i nv thought it'll be so difficult
letting you go. is the hardest thing i've ever had to to do.

I'll always love you.
we've got to stay strong.
I'll wait for the day you tell me you're a better person. you're a stronger person.
and i'll be happy.
because this is all worth it.

i miss you so much.
if only i knew the last time we kissed wud be the last.
the last time we held hands.
i'll really miss you holding my hands.
i still miss it from mon-fri when i'm going to work alone.
when u can't book out.
at night. after we put down the phones.
it hurts everytime we can't work this out.

i'll miss the smell of yr hair.
your clothes.
your love.
hw comfortable i feel around you.
hw you carry me even though i'm too heavy for you. haha

how long will this last.
how long will my pain last.
dun tell me i'll get over it soon.
you've no idea the hell i'm putting myself thru.
just to convince this is the best for the both of us.
i said a prayer for you last night.
for God to take our pain away.
and make everything right.
so we can see the brighter light.
i dunno if i can get thru this.

i love you.
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you

i dunno when i'll stop crying.
i just wanna hear yr voice
see yr face.
hold yr hands.
why........
i love you.

i was so determined yesterday.
after i met up with th.
i wanted to stick to our deadline so much
to see hw it'll go.
but i guess we're too tired to continue to try.
i need you to help me get thru this.
please dun hurt me during this time.
please. i'm begging you.
i love you.

there's so many things i wanna say to you.
so much i can't put to words.
so much feelings.
so many places.
so much things we haven't do.
the bbq. the massage.
i'm afraid to regret this.
you've always been the best thing that happen to me.

take care baby.
i can't be with you anymore.
you're my everything. you're everywhere i go.
everything i do.
everything reminds me that u're nt with me.
i can't live.
i can't breath.
i can't go on...

i'm waiting for you.
please just tell me something.

yours always.
Zhi li

You, Said it once
Said it twice,
Said it hurts, but I do it again
I don't change, I don't learn, cause I can't let it end
Said it's gone, let it be, 'cause you don't need a friend
Baby I do,
I pull and you push and we cry
Till we laugh again I
Promise you, you promise me back and then why
Does it all fall apart in just a matter of time...

So I'm thinking maybe
You've made up your mind
'Cause you're distort (distort)
And I can't stand to fight no more
So please don't make me hurt you like I do
I don't really trust myself to leave,
Eventhough I hear you sayin' baby no, no
(no, no, nonono, nono)
I can't take no more of this still
I'm knock, knock, knockin' on your door
Askin' if you still let me in
Won't you stay (ay, ay, ay, Baby ... ay, ay, ay, ay ay,...ay, ay, ay, ay...)
Won't you stay?

Memories of the fun that we had and photographs on the wall
Now I can't make you smile or hear you laugh anymore
And I can't help or ask, that's the point of it all
Tell me Baby,
Call it love, call it blame, call it joy, call it pain, But I fell, call it girl what you may but its painful as hell
To be here while you're there don't need nobody else...

So I'm thinking maybe
You've made up your mind
'Cause you're distort (distort)
And I can't stand to fight no more
So please don't make me hurt you like I do
I don't really trust myself to leave,
Eventhough you're telling me
oh no, no
(no, no, nonono, nono)
I can't take no more of this still
I'm knock, knock, knockin' on your door
Askin' if you still let me in
Won't you stay (ay, ay, ay, Baby, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay...)
Won't you stay?

If it's all meant for me
And if I'm so meant for you
Why does this have to be so hard on both of us two
If it's all meant for me
And if I'm so meant for you
Why does this have to be so hard on both of us two

Still you're sayin' no, no (no, no, nonono, nono)
I can't take no more of this and
And I'm knock, knock, knockin' on your door
Askin' if you still let me in
Won't you stay (ay, ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay...)
Won't you stay?
Won't you stay (ay, ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay...)
Won't you stay?

I can't believe I'm back here again.
The twist of events 1.5 years on.
ha. Irony

I feel like I keep doing the wrong things.

I used to be living the black/white world.

Now I seem to be fading into the grey area.

I'm afraid of what to say or do now.

Every step I take seem to be wrong.

I'm really afraid.

Cause I know. This is not the end.

I wanna do right by you. But I can't seem to do it. I need you to help me too. I need you to meet me halfway on this.

I know you're tired.
But dont give up.
please don't.